I have no words, I have been trying for the past few days to describe how I've been feeling and I just can't find my words. Full, that's the best way to describe it. I have closed the chapter of the unknown in my life. This past weekend I met my biological mother. It was… Continue reading The Missing Piece
The time has come for me to close this chapter of my life. The chapter of the unknown. As I mentioned in a recent post Karen will be traveling soon so we can meet in person. I don't know what the future will hold for us but, I am so excited to see what's next… Continue reading The Time Has Come, The Walrus Said ….
You know my dad? How would you know my dad, and how does he not know?!?! OOOooooo wait, father as in biological father not my dad?!? Okay, really?! Wow! Hmm I always knew the pregnancy was a hidden pregnancy. Being hidden, I just assumed my biological father never knew about me. So although the curiosity… Continue reading Dad? Wait; What?
My world has been turned upside down and rolled over these last two weeks. It all started with a message on ancestry "I see we are related, how are we related?" Can I put in the big eyed emoji? Does it show through 😳? What??? I never expected the next several days to be what… Continue reading I am open to you.
Why now? Why at 33 years old did I get this whole thing started? Why not 18 when I was a legal adult? Why not 21 when I was a "true" adult? At 25 I discovered my records were destroyed, losing all hope. So why now? What promomted me at 33 years old to order… Continue reading Expectations
"As a mother the #1 priority is to be the best mother to our children, to give them a good life, teach them the proper morals, love them and always support them. As mothers sometimes we forget, and even lose, the fact that we need to take care of ourselves. Now is working a subpar… Continue reading The Best Mom
It’s been awhile since I’ve written anything, and I’ve tried to figure out why. I've started and stopped over and over again, but it just seems jumbled and random, and just never made sense. So today I am going to sit and just write. I think one of my biggest hang ups has been trying… Continue reading My Beginning …
Two days ago I was driving home, alone with my thoughts and realized it's been one month since I got my DNA results and had a match with BFM. I started to mentally re-prepare myself for the possibility that I may never have my answers I so longed to know. I could see that BFM… Continue reading Expect The Unexpected